Struggling for years

2021.12.05 13:33 devildogrunt Struggling for years

So I was a police officer for years and about a year and a half ago left due to being injured while on duty. At the time I had my daughter on the way and wanted to be in her and my son's life. I have struggled with drinking myself to sleep for about 3 years at this point. Well two weeks ago today I attempted to end my life and was so intoxicated I thankfully failed. Today marks that I am two weeks sober. I struggle with extreme PTSD and depression. This has been the longest time a bottle hasn't been to my lips in years and I just feel proud of myself. The weird thing is, I never saw myself as the drunk or that I had a problem. It just seemed part of life. I don't really have anyone to tell this to but I stumbled upon this sub a few weeks ago and the stories here give me hope. Thank you to everyone here. It is a good feeling to know I'm not alone.
submitted by devildogrunt to stopdrinking [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 WildlyWithJoy AGLAONEMA ❤️ ABUNDANCE

AGLAONEMA ❤️ ABUNDANCE submitted by WildlyWithJoy to Aglaonemas [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 Briand2714 [Game Thread] Houston Rockets (6-16) vs. New Orleans Pelicans (7-18) 6:00 PM CST


Where Toyota Center, Houston TX
When 7 PM CST
Broadcast AT&TSPORTSNET, SportsTalk 790
Injuries Jalen Green (Leg Contusion)
Enjoy tonight's game, report trolls, have fun!
submitted by Briand2714 to rockets [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 scjohnson2431 Just getting started..... (Software recommendation)

Good Morning all -
I have recently decided I wanted to dip my toes into this, I am an older drummer who has a younger daughter that has started programming computer games and asked if I could put together some music for her, I have a Helix LT and play guitar also so have started looking into getting things together to start recording some music over the computer. I ordered an audio interface ( Focusrite Scarlett 2i2 3rd Gen USB Audio Interface) Started looking for software to use and have downloaded Reaper, and looking for recommendations to see what the best software would be able to be used by a beginner who has rudimentary knowledge of music production, but above-average computer knowledge. Is there software that is widely recommended?
submitted by scjohnson2431 to musicproduction [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 guitarripper My dad was not my biological father.

The title says it all really, but the process of learning this is the more interesting part. As with many stories of this nature it involves commercial DNA tests. 23andMe and AncestryDNA specifically. I will try to make this not confusing.
For context, my parents separated in the early 90’s and most of my relationship with my dad was over the phone as he moved out of state.
In early November 2020, my dad sent me some old pictures. One of him and his siblings as young children, and one of him in his mid 40s. I had never thought I looked much like him, but we always chalked it up to me looking more like my mom. For some reason at this point, I could not ignore that fact anymore. This was also partially driven by the fact that as I’ve gotten older, I bear a strong resemblance to my “Uncle Scott”. Not a blood related uncle, but the father of my cousin on my mom’s side. He dated my aunt for many years, and was friends with my parents until they moved to a new state in the late 80’s. Another thing I sort of laughed off in the past, as Scott and my mom have a similar type of look. However, again at this point I could not ignore these clues anymore.
So, I decided to start doing some research, starting with all the names of DNA matches I didn’t recognize from my tests. I began trying to find some of them on Facebook, and was successful in several cases. I cross referenced their friends lists looking for any connections. Right off the bat, I discovered that three of them are directly related to Scott. A brother and sister, both his first cousins, and his niece from his sister. At this point, that was about all the proof I needed, couldn’t stop until I had more answers.
I contacted my cousin, his daughter. We don’t have much of a relationship, due to age difference and growing up in different states. I basically laid out this crazy theory of mine, and she was quite intrigued and willing to help me figure this out. I also decided it was time to talk to my mom about this. I called her and laid out the things I was seeing based on DNA results. Asking if there was any possibility that my dad wasn’t my biological father. She kind of laughed about it and said that was not possible. I didn’t push much more, and we went on to have a conversation about other things.
I asked my cousin to help me figure out some of the names I didn’t recognize. She wasn’t able to help much, except she recognized the name of her cousin, her dad’s niece. By this point I had reached out to Scott directly, just saying that I seemed to be related to some of his family members and I wasn’t sure why. He was curious as well. Eventually, I asked him if there was any possibility that he was my biological father. His answer told me everything I needed to know…”What does your mom say?” I told what she told me, and he was reluctant to give any further details. So, now the task was getting my mom to acknowledge the possibility. She texted me a few days later saying after a while it hurt her feelings that I would ask her something like that. Like I was accusing her of being some kind of “ho bag”. I explained there was no moral judgement on my part, I just couldn’t ignore the evidence I had found.
At this point I was at a stand still, no one would budge with any additional information or confirmation. I had not discussed any of this with my dad, other than a few vague questions that may have aroused some suspicion. Knowing my only option at this point was to prove my dad was not my biological father, I decided to ask if he would be interested in doing one of the DNA tests. I had told him in the past how I thought it was pretty cool to see the percentages of where your genetics come from and so on. It was the holiday season and the prices were low for the tests, so I offered to send him one. He agreed, and I sent him a test. He mailed it off, and the waiting began. He was quite tech illiterate, so handled all of the account set up and stuff for him. This was also to help me retain any information I didn’t want him to know. I saw no upside to telling him he wasn’t my biological father. He was always my dad regardless of DNA.
After about 2 weeks the results came back from 23andMe. As I already knew, my dad and I are not related at all. I know his test was accurate because there were a couple of his extended family members on his DNA match list, but I was not, nor did he show up on mine. I proceeded to go over the ancestry results with him over the phone, excluding anything about DNA matches. Luckily, we had a similar enough genetic heritage that it didn’t seem to arouse any suspicions. Though for me there were some very obvious ones. After that, I didn’t bring anything regarding this to him.
With this evidence I could now confront my mom with hard proof. I called her, and told her my findings. She did seem genuinely speechless, which led me to believe she hadn’t tried to deceive me before, to her this was news as well. I gave her a few days to let it all sink in. By this point I had been researching and trying to figure this out for about a month, so I was used to the idea, but she was still somewhat in shock. About 5 days later she called me and confirmed after thinking really hard that this was a possibility, as there had been some “extra-curricular activities". I did not ask for any details beyond that.
Now that she had confirmed this as a possibility, I contacted Scott to tell him what she said. He then shared more than I was expecting. Without prompt, he divulged the details to what happened. Apparently, he and my parents were in their early 20’s and had been friends for several years. He had recently broken up with his long time girlfriend, and was in a slump. In an effort to cheer up their friend, and perhaps for exportation purposes, invite him into a group sex scenario. My parents were happily married at this time for about 2 years, and it didn’t seem to affect their relationship beyond that, and they remained friends with Scott for many years. He also began dating my aunt about 6 months later, which is where my cousin came from about 8 or 9 years into their relationship. So, if you haven’t figured it out yet, my cousin is also my half sister, very strange.
The crazy part is no one even considered this a possibility when my mom got pregnant. It was just assumed my dad got her pregnant, probably because they were having sex on a regular basis. The other event was a one time thing from what I understand.
This is pretty much where the story ends. Unfortunately, my dad who raised me passed away back in early April. I never told him any of this, I think it would have just caused him unnecessary pain. My mom and I haven’t discussed this any further, as she doesn’t deal with that kind of stuff well. As for Scott, we haven’t really had any interactions after last December when I finally got confirmation. I never expected anything from him anyway. He did provide some family history, so I could build an accurate family tree. Which in itself revealed some interesting things about my genetic heritage.
If you made it this far, I apologize for the bad formatting and possibly confusing story. I don’t often write things this long, and there are so many details to this story. If there are any questions I will try to answer them for clarity. Thanks.
submitted by guitarripper to 23andme [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 chanma50 VENOM: LET THERE BE CARNAGE $1.03M Weekend (Est.) 1,234 Screens / $838 Avg. Weekend 10 / -34.5% Change $210.91M Total (North America)

VENOM: LET THERE BE CARNAGE $1.03M Weekend (Est.) 1,234 Screens / $838 Avg. Weekend 10 / -34.5% Change $210.91M Total (North America) submitted by chanma50 to boxoffice [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 fly1ngpanda [EUW][CLASH][GOLD] looking for players

looking for top adc suport gold elo CaptaiinSneaky
submitted by fly1ngpanda to TeamRedditTeams [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 Man_From_Latvia Bāzētais Levits!

Bāzētais Levits! submitted by Man_From_Latvia to okdraudzindauni [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 kellyoohh Another COVID freakout

I really thought we were being conservative planning a wedding in January of 2022. We got engaged before the pandemic but couldn’t start planning right away, and this was what we thought was “pushed out” and now I’m regretting it.
Our venue requires vaccination which made me feel a lot better, but now with this Omicron uncertainty and the possibility that it will evade vaccines, I’m having a meltdown.
I’m honestly not even as worried about things getting cancelled or reduced, I think it’s unlikely at this point given how the general public reacted to shutdowns (although the wedding is in a very liberal city so it’s possible). I’m more worried about having a super spreader event and not being able to do anything about it. I also assume some people will drop out last minute due to concern.
We have a decent amount of older guests, including my 92 year old grandmother who is more excited about the event than I’ve ever seen her. I couldn’t live with myself if a bunch of them ended up getting sick.
I’m spiraling at the moment and I guess just wondering if others are feeling the same or have any words of encouragement.
submitted by kellyoohh to wedding [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 Free-ON Has anyone heard any news / rumors about CW Ahsoka release?

Was originally listed for “Oct 2021 - Dec 2021”… wondering if we should expect a delay. Hopefully we get final photos soon.
submitted by Free-ON to hottoys [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 AchumHumtsoe Chorus grows for repeal of AFSPA in Northeast after Nagaland killings

Chorus grows for repeal of AFSPA in Northeast after Nagaland killings submitted by AchumHumtsoe to india [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 Lvaryq Any experince with android 11 on new chap 3

Wondering if it has gotten better since chapter 2 s8 with android 11 support
submitted by Lvaryq to FortNiteMobile [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 kUZENSGreat How to Buy Medicines Safely From an Online Pharmacy?

Hello there
An online pharmacy is an internet-based vendor that sells medicines and includes both legitimate and illegitimate pharmacies.
Why are online pharmacies popular? Online pharmacies offer better pricing than offline stores, with increased access, lower transaction and product costs, convenience and greater anonymity for consumers. They offer accessibility to people with limited mobility and people in remote areas.
Yes, online pharmacies can be safe and legal
Online pharmacies are legal in every state, as long as they meet state licensure requirements.
As for me - I prefer these famous trusted Internet Pharmacies to buy ant meds:
Bye for now
submitted by kUZENSGreat to viagra2022best [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 normabelka2 Can you share your thoughts about “Why men love bitches” by Sherry Argov? I personally don’t understand why it gets recommended so much, half the book is about modeling yourself to male expectations.

submitted by normabelka2 to FemaleDatingStrategy [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 byebyeirishwhy pig wrongfully catches people for DUI on weed after a MONTH of training on how to detect drugs in people

pig wrongfully catches people for DUI on weed after a MONTH of training on how to detect drugs in people submitted by byebyeirishwhy to ACAB [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 UnrulyPigeon FT: 4IV HA Torchic LF: other breedjects

Happy with almost any other breedject, particularly after HA totodile but any offer is welcome
submitted by UnrulyPigeon to pokemontrades [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 ZackariasEl Nicehash quickminer won't install..

Formated and installed brand new win10 OS and all updates. When I run the setup file as administrator for quickminer nothing happens.. why? Any ideas? Thanks
submitted by ZackariasEl to cryptomining [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 SoulHarmony Are you a Multipassionalite? Podcast Episode

Are you a Multipassionalite? Podcast Episode submitted by SoulHarmony to Soulnexus [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 69bob69thebuilder69 Ways to improve

Ways to improve submitted by 69bob69thebuilder69 to MADFUT [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 TheMadWoodcutter Nobody: LewsTherinTelamonBot: ”ILYENAAAAAA!!”

Nobody: LewsTherinTelamonBot: ”ILYENAAAAAA!!” submitted by TheMadWoodcutter to WetlanderHumor [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 xponentialdesign OMINO-KALEIDO Procedural Monochrome Tiling Pattern I | 11-05-19 | by Xponentialdesign

OMINO-KALEIDO Procedural Monochrome Tiling Pattern I | 11-05-19 | by Xponentialdesign submitted by xponentialdesign to patterns [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 WeightOfItAll Help with Iskal Queen

Xbox PhotoGamer9195
submitted by WeightOfItAll to remnantgame [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 Rickylahey9 Xbox1 H: Fixers W: Offers

Xbox1 H: Fixers W: Offers submitted by Rickylahey9 to Market76 [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 Tekitekidan [OC] Oh I'm just a lil' bitter that my baby is due in the first week of the new year, right when my (currently maxed) deductible resets to 0 😊😊😊 God bless America 🇺🇸

[OC] Oh I'm just a lil' bitter that my baby is due in the first week of the new year, right when my (currently maxed) deductible resets to 0 😊😊😊 God bless America 🇺🇸 submitted by Tekitekidan to Babybumptrolls [link] [comments]

2021.12.05 13:33 Relwi Best non playstation/xbox controllers for pc?

I want to buy a controller to play some games on pc and I want to buy something out of the ordinary. You know some good controllers that aren't playstation/xbox controllers?
submitted by Relwi to pcmasterrace [link] [comments]